Friday, October 19, 2012

I Have Returned

I know! Crazy, right?

You guys must be wondering what kind of spank-tacular adventures I go on while I'm away. You guys must also know that I am both boring AND afraid of change. Mostly what I do whilst I'm away is eat, sleep, read, pretend to write, pretend to read some more, eat, sleep, attend a class or two, repeat. Now that I'm working, I guess I fit that in somewhere, too. But yeah, that's about it. BUT I HAS RETURNED. Missed me? I missed you too. 

Usually when I come back to the internet it's for a reason. This time i's NaNoWriMo! Yay! I fail at WriMos, guys. I do my best not to get distracted by the millions of ideas floating around in my head, but it doesn't work. Or at least it hasn't worked YET. 

I'm a lazy lima bean. Always have been, but no longer CAN be. Like, this job, Guys, DEMANDS I make good grades, DEMANDS I'm on time with deadlines, and threatens to throttle me if I don't follow through. Basically, I'm on the verge of being thuh-rottled. 

I know myself. When I start feeling pressure, I withdraw. Stop caring. Shut down. Move on. But I'm doing NaNo this year to PROVE to myself that even I can change. That my bad habits don't define me. That when the pressure's on, I CAN handle it, despite what I've believed of myself in the past. 

I'm doing NaNo--- but on my terms. I've been thinking about it and there are two elements I want to complete. The goal for NaNo is to complete a first draft of a novel by the end of November OR 50,000 words of said novel. I have a novel I'd really like to work on for NaNo. We're calling it MV. But I know that realistically, I'm going to get halfway through and realize  OHEMGEE! It's NOT PERFECT! And then I will cry all of the tears obsessing over its imperfection and in doing so, I'll be procrastinating and NOT finishing the draft.

So my goal for NaNo is this: 
-Finish 25,000 words of MV
-Complete a 25,000 word online series for you guys on my unused blog, Sommertales

You know why that blog's been unused? It was supposed to be the host for my first ever webseries (NOPE! Not even YouTube Rules! which I'm sorry--- we'll have to talk about that one another day). But I'm going to use it this November and turn that unfilmed webseries into a multi-part novella for you guys to read. Yay! 

Since you guys are brilliant, you'll know that 25,000 plus 25,000 equals 50,000. That's 50,000 unperfected words. 50,000 excuses I'll try to make for not completing NaNo. But 25,000 of those are FOR YOU. The reason I'm doing this is because I NEED YOU. I NEED YOU TO CHEER ME ON.

Every day.
For all of November.
I need you to tell me, "You can do it, Deserae. You can finish something. And one day, it CAN look amazing. But that day doesn't have to be this one. It can be tomorrow, or even the day after that. But all you have to do is FINISH. Please, don't give up." REMIND ME I'M DOING THIS FOR YOU. 

Because if I'm not just doing this for me, I have more of a reason to go all the way, you know? If I convince myself that someone out there in the world NEEDS THESE WORDS, then good golly, I have to get those words to them! Somedays, you guys will get the bulk of my word quota for the day. Others, MV will get the bulk. But every day of November, I'll blog on Almost (Not Quite) There to give you guys an honest update on where I am and where the words are going. Do you think we can do it? Together, I mean?

Keep me sane, Guys,
P.S. Thank you all for your love on the last post! I'm weird sometimes. Thank you for getting that. :)


  1. Woot! Woot! Good luck! I can't promise I'll be much help because every time I do try and push you, it back lashes and we both end up disappointed. Anyways, so much luck to you! I think you can do it, but you have to want it. AND REALLY WANT IT! Because when you really want something, nothing will stop you from achieving it. No excuses, no problems, all heart. ALl you have to do is try and you'll succeed. If not, if you let imperfection (Which is bullsh*t reason becaus eyou know how bad my stories are and how much it kills me, but I don't stop) get to you, then you're keeping yourself from your goal.

    I'm behind you 100% and I hope you succeed, but I can't make you want something. No one but YOU can.

    LLAP Love,

  2. that's awesome! And you CAN do it! I know how hard it can be at times to sit down and just write, there are too many social networking sites that peak my interest and too many shiny things! But you've set this goal for yourself AND posted it for others to see so now you have officially committed to it. I'll be cheering you on.

  3. Hi, Des! I've missed you on the blogosphere!
    I'm excited to see what you're going to bring in November. Speaking of which, my's almost November. Wow. Time really flies by. It feels as if it was just summer yesterday. I can't believe how much time has passed by since the beginning of the school year already! I guess that means that I must be having a good time.
    As for how your life was while you were on break, that sounds like the greatest way to spend my life. I love eating, pretending to read, sleeping, pretending to write, and doing it all over again. Except the classes part really, but I guess we don't really have a choice now, do we? Besides, where would we be without learning?
    Anyway, I am glad you're back on the blogosphere and I'm so excited for NaNoWriMo. I'm sure it's going to be a blast. Good luck!